Posted on February 17, 2015 at 12:50 AM comments (0)
Learning to ride it out!
When I first started riding, one of my greatest fears were the curves. Why?
1) I was told by someone I may not be strong enough to lean my harley in the curve,
2) I personally feared because, of the unknowns - how long, how sharp, what was on the other side of the curve? (I need all the answers upfront!)
3) Then the "what if's" would set in on me! (My insecure self talk!) What if I didn't lean enough or what if there was something in the middle of the curve and what if I couldn't straightened up in time!
As a passenger, curves thrilled me- but as a rider the thought of taking a curve evoked fear -great fear!
The only way for me to overcome the fear was to face the curves and I had to do it alone!
Either I was going to be a passenger for the rest of my life or I was going take control of my own harley and I was going to ride!
In order to ride- I had to take the curves-without stopping-and- ride it out.
I had to face my fear and I had to do it alone. No one else could take that ride for me. I couldn't let that fear rule me but I had to use that fear to motivate.
So, now I ride and I have learned to love what I feared the most-the curves and the unknown!
The curves have become one of my favorite parts of the road - curves thrill me! I have a favorite one back home! When I come out of the curve the sun shines on me as to say "ta-da", I smile to myself every time as only God and I know its meaning and the fear I overcame to receive the rays of the sun shining on me!
This morning I share this story because I have been reflecting on some times I faced fear (life's curves) alone and I came out on the other end stronger for it:
When I was alone making decisions as a single mom.
When I was alone as a child going in to surgery to have my foot amputated. (Parents were not with me that morning, doctors suggested they stay home!)
When I am alone crying over a divorce and a failed marriage.
When I sat alone in an attorney's office making a decision with no husband to confer with.
When a man put his fists to my face and threatened to blacken both my eyes because I didn't do something when he wanted it done.
When a financial decision needed to be made and there was no money to make the decision with.
When gossip was wrong again and it seemed I couldn't out live anyone ever believing it.
I could recount numerous times when I was alone, at my weakest moments, yet because I kept riding "life's curve" out I found myself at my greatest moments of strength!
Why? Because I found myself relying on what I knew was truly hidden in me.
When no one else can take "life's curve" but me- when I am alone - I find courage, strength and companionship with myself and with my God!
These can become the God moments that you have sought all of your life- and the healing moments you have prayed for!
Moments when; discouragement becomes courage, weakness becomes strength, weeping becomes joy, ashes become beauty!
Do not fear being alone... for it is then you find your strength, who you are with God!
You learn to ride the curves-when you ride it out!
On the other side is your "ta-da" moment! Just a little sunshine, as you and God share a smile!
Your God moment awaits - keep riding!
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